Saturday, September 6, 2014

WOD?:

Mixed weights -- 12 kg 2hd sw (all single) and one set 5 x 5; remainder 8 kg

DAY?:

pretty good -- sweater sleeve is so close to done i can taste it, and it fits beautifully.  hope remainder of sweater fits like this, will be most excellent sexy thing if it does. woot!!

slept good, took a nap this morning and all was well.  

EMO?:

happy!!  happy in a way that is uncomplicated, for once.  just happy and not fretting about the end of happy.  walking back from dinner, looking at the canal, thinking of the turtles i see there sometimes and the games i've seen them play with sticks, pushing them through the water.

CORPUS?:

good.  had a hamburger before naptime, had rellenos for lunch, had afternoon happy fun times.

DID?:

well, then we had this bright idea.  new cajun seafood place nearby, every time we drive past, the line is out the door.  poked our heads in once (smelled AWESOME) but the wait was an hour and a half at 8:00 p.m.  we're accustomed to half the restaurant being empty at 8, when we usually eat dinner.

so as the evening storm began rolling in, we said "hey, not a school night, let's wait till 8, 8:30 and walk over to the angry crab for dinner."

so no weights, but walk.

AFTER?:

still happy and bubbly and feeling good.  dinner was awesome (pound of shrimp in butter and spices, table is your plate, fingers are your utensils, sink is over there).  not a first date night place, but gareth and i have held each other's hair as we puked, grabbed the mop and cleaned up after explosive diarrhea (not simultaneously, praise be, either in the offloading or in being sick at the same time).  no secrets.  no problem with cleaning a little garlic and bay leaf off from behind my ears after i do a face plant in the boiling bag.

Friday, September 5, 2014

WOD?:

Rest day!  WOOOOOOO!!!

DAY?:

Reasonably good, actually. started on the OWL, got most of the way through the first sleeve and its increases.  started on the bottom gusset of the bag.  not too shabby.

day eaten up with LT meeting and dealing with a car at the garage.  bleah.  then had to fill gareth's tank because i had just enough to get to the garage and not enough to get home, and did not know this until i was nearly at the garage, way away from all the places i know.

fortunately, there was a place just down the street, so dealt with that, but of course the place is set up to funnel you into the car wash from wherever you approach, so lots of pulling around and backing and filling.

EMO?:

really fed up with the whole damn process when i finally got gas.  needed a dowel from michaels, so decided to pick one up on the way home, and ended up buying sock yarn as well, because there was only a little, and the colors were so nice.

triggers identified:  might miss out, pissed offedness.

also wound up stopping to pick up a prescription at the store since it was in (yay autofill) and bought ice cream as well.  ate the whole carton.

triggers identified:  pissed offedness, "deserve a treat"

CORPUS?:

before or after the ice cream, LOL?  before, okay, hot, tired (no nap, dammit) and after -- hot, sleepy, very hot due to the sludge in the bloodstream.  almost drunk on sugar crap.  took a nap shortly after gareth came home, up again and about again for a while, and then back to bed around eleven.  shit, that used to be a school night bedtime, sometimes. 

DID?:

rest night, woooooo!  opted to rest, and rest good.  lots of crafting.  with the exception of the ice cream and the green chile chicken potato, ate pretty much on menu for the whole day.  had a chick fil a snack while at the garage -- but no fries with bleu cheese dressing, and a diet soda, so 400 kcal snack.  a true snack, not a fourth meal.  

AFTER?:

after the ice cream, not so good.  the whole right side of my face hurt where the nerves have been juttered around.  hard to actually sleep during my nap, had to take some ibuprofen at bedtime in order to go to sleep.  feels better this morning. thankfully, but that was miserable. maybe that's something i could consider the next time i want a treat, that ice cream IS NO LONGER A TREAT.

berries and cream and splenda, perhaps.  during the summer, that's possible.  find something equally "treaty" and easy in the winter, maybe.  frozen strawberries, no sugar?  maybe.  

Thursday, September 4 2014

WOD?:  mixed weights, 30 minutes, 12 kg for the isolated 2hd sw and one round of the 5 x 5, 8 kg for the rest

DAY?:  bleh.  so not productive at all.  i feel like a great heap of chicken fat in front of the desk.  frustrated beyond words.  kept trying to do a little and then not doing what i said i would do.

EMO?: frustrated.  irritated.  twitchy.  so many things to do; so many things that sound appealing and i'm a mule starving in the middle of a hayfield.  can't pick just one bite because the next looks better.

yesterday's workout sucked rocks. was hard to get through, had to mod down a bunch to make it.  made it, which is part of the important part, but at the same time, damn it all.

CORPUS?:  been better.  sugars high this morning because of choices made last night, probably high now because of choices made for lunch.  as in, didn't have any normal lunchtime foods (and can't eat hobbit food, the joys of buying a boatload of starchy things in cardboard boxes are forbidden to me).

took eggs, lunchmeat, leftover hummus from last night.

DID?:  just hit me that we have leftover chicken and green chile sauce in the fridge that deserves to be honored (read: eaten). so i''ll hot some of that up and put it over a potato . . . but while we have cheese, we have no sour cream.

aha!  think i'll walk to the store and get some cream for supper.

AFTER?: 

not thrilling -- the weather is waiting to sneeze, all heat and pressure and pleck. but i did it, and it was easier than i recall the last walk to the store which felt like hard, hard work.  uphill both ways.  beer is good, green chile chicken potato is coming.

Some Thoughts

I have discovered the joy of journaling my workouts, doing so seems to keep me on track better.  started on vacation, and the act of sitting for a moment with self and day seems to bring greater clarity to the choices i then make.

and they are all choices, aren't they.  the choice to put on the sneakers and go for a walk, to pick up the iron and go ballistic, to sit on the couch with ben and jerry. choices.

all choices are valid, it's just that i want to make more choices from a place of choice and not from a place of running away or a place of pain.if i'm wrestling with the habit and leaning towards something bad for me that sounds good, then let's see what's what.

which was what this started as, but my handwriting has declined even further from lack of practice, hence blowing the dust off this blog so i can track again.

3/3/2010

BF % -- 27.1

BMI 25.3

154.5 lbs

2/3/10

BF % -- 27.9

BMI -- 25.4

12/27/09

BF % -- 28.2

BMI -- 26.2